The end of July is approaching and my adventure is about to begin. I finished a book I started last November during Camp Nanowrimo and that’s quite something. Now I just have to edit it, which I’m not looking forward to But that isn’t the point here. In a few weeks, its time for me to grab all my things and leave everything behind. I’m going to England for the first time in my life. In about a month, I will be at a school abroad instead of the school I have spent the past year at. Its time to pack soon. (I’m one of those people who pack way too early and still forget important things) But how do you pack up your life in just two bags? How do you even leave everything and everyone you know behind without looking back? Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited to study abroad, really excited. But its a little intimidating to be on my own in an unfamiliar place, with a different language and a whole new culture.
I’m leaving behind a lot. My family, friends, home and my hobbies. I can pursue them abroad too, of course. But you grow fond of some places and start to think of them as home. I’m leaving behind my pony, who disagreed with me most of the time, but who remained my friend until now. My dog, who I have grown up with and who is loyal to me. Half of my things. Merchandise, my beloved books, CD’s, movies, posters, objects that I treasure and clothes. A lot of clothes.
I’m very good at overpacking. I like to bring everything with me, just in case. I’m rather fond of the things I own, despite them being simple things. That’s strange. They are just objects, but they all have a meaning and an importance, no matter how small it is. There is a reason they are in my room. I haven’t really thought about it before. I own enough books to say I have a decent collection, and I can’t bring them all. I could bring my favorites, but as a bookworm I have a lot of them. I want to bring The lord of the rings, because they are my all time favorites. I can’t leave behind the Harry Potter books because they were my childhood. (Owning the entire series in both dutch and English doesn’t help much) The fault in our stars goes with me because that book is brilliant. Do you see my problem?
Perhaps on this journey I will truly find myself and feel how its like to be out there. The world is bigger than were I live and where I lived before. I need to experience it, before old habits catch up with me. I can’t wait to meet lots of new people and begin over with my hobbies. I want to try new things and do things I have been afraid to do before. I want to keep my arms open and embrace change. I want to keep an open mind so I can see everything in its true form. Now is the time to meet people different and yet the same, to see who comes in my path. Some might only cross my path briefly, while others may tag along for a while. A rare few will stay throughout my entire journey. Its exciting. Its scary.
Anyways, there is something terribly exciting about the thought of failing. Before you fail you are able to make it. You are able to achieve and to reach goals. You can grow and learn until you succeed.
You just have to convince yourself not to let it stop you. I certainly wont.
Just a few more weeks and I’m on my way to England and starting my studies abroad. I’m ready for this adventure. I’m so excited!